@#$%!!!!!!!!!

This is my song dedicated to cancer.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-7l250E5uM4&feature=fvw 
All I can say is.....cancer sux.  She's 7.  7!!!  Not 67, 77, 87, 97, just 7.  I would gladly trade places with her.  In a second.  We've been blessed for a couple years and didn't have to worry about the doctor visits every week.  Just every 3 months.  This will change soon.  I just want this dang cancer to go away.  Like parachute pants or Michael Bolton.  We will fight this disease with all our might.  We are gonna knock it out!!  Just so you know I am trying my best not to be very angry right now.  I really just want to curse and scream and break stuff, but that's not a good idea.  So instead, I will write.  And try to add as much humor as possible.  It's hard, but I'm trying not to be hateful right now. 
The chemo was terrible.  It made her sick and tired.  Her hair fell out.  She hated that part.  She liked wearing wigs.  It was hard to get her to stop.  The accessing of the port was even worse.  Kicking and screaming and yelling and crying.  The masks out in public, so she wouldn't get sick.  The extra precautions with everything so she wouldn't get a fever and end up back in the hospital for days.  All that will happen again in some way, shape or form.  It could be radiation as well or by itself.  We won't know until after the doctor goes to tumor board, and then talks with the other doctors he knows that deal with brain tumors.  Please, pray for my little girl.  She deserves to grow up and drive another man crazy because she wants everything she sees on TV.  http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/amayarose
I need some angry music right now.  This will make me feel better. 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3F-Rsx4o7TA&feature=channel
Ok, I lied, I needed happy music.  This video and song makes me laugh.  I remember watching them at the Fresh Fest with Run DMC, LL, and the Fat Boys.  Great show!  They just wanted to be stupid and have fun.  I like doing that too.  I watched the VH1 Hip Hop honors.  I have a couple gripes.  1. LL helped build Def Jam.  You should have done EVERYTHING possible to get him to perform.  2. Where was Slick Rick?  Other than that I enjoyed a glimpse into my teenage years.  3.  Why not more Public Enemy?  That's good angry music. 
The rest of the family is doing well. Brenda took the news well. I'm surprised at how well.  I guess when we found out it was changing, she knew it was inevitable that this would happen.  Taylor is working hard in school.  Kai is eating.  A lot.  Too much.  I am looking for extra money just to support his formula habit. 
He needs an intervention.  Brenda read this and said it was ok, even though she cried a little.  But she laughed as well.  So I guess it is good to go.