Moments

1.    It’s no fun being angry….all the time….

2.    If I was married to Halle Berry, I would wish I was married to Megan Fox & Paula Patton as well.

3.    If I had my dream car, I would wish it was newer or a different color. 

4.    If I looked like Shemar Moore, I would wish I looked like Brad Pitt instead.

5.    If I was famous I would wish that I was more famous or not famous at all.

6.    If I was a billionaire, I would wish that I was a trillionaire. 

7.    I would buy music because someone else said it was good and most of the time I did not even like it or I don’t even listen to it anymore.

8.    I would be a stay at home dad, then I would wish that I wasn’t so bored. 
9. I will do a better job of staying in touch with my friends instead of keeping myself the center of everyone's attention.  

Why can’t I stay in the moment and be happy with what I have?  It would be a lot easier.  Instead, I worry about things I don’t have or believe I need to have to make me happy.  In the long run, things won’t make me happy in the long run.  Short term, I will be happy with that new CD, but in the long term it will just collect dust like so many others.  Some CD’s were worth the purchase and I will listen to them forever.  I have shirts and shoes I wouldn’t wear since I thought I would mess them up.  One pair of shoes was messed up when I tried to wear them, so protecting them didn’t help at all.  If a shirt I love doesn’t look as good as it did before, it’s OK.  I can either get a new one or keep wearing the old one.  One thing I have changed is that I don’t let people’s feelings about my appearance matter anymore.  I have a beard because I wanted to have one.  I’m not concerned that it’s mostly gray.  Other people may say, “You need to color that.”  I’ve been telling them, “As long as I like it, it should not matter if its gray or purple. “  It is hard trying to feel good in my own skin.  It takes plenty of work.  I finally feel that I’m worth the work it takes to be the best me I can be.  I’m trying to be a better person and stay in the moment, but that takes even more work.  Daily improvement is the goal.  The great thing is that I am improving.