Therapy...

I really need this right now. The reason is I hate something. I know its not right to hate, but I hate it with all my being. It's not like a brussel sprout, Ravens, reality TV hate. Its deeper than that. I hate Cancer! Not just for my daughter, but for anyone who has had to deal with this scourge. Not too long ago a friend of ours had to deal with the death of her mother because of Cancer. Now she gets news that her sister has it as well. Please, pray for her and her family. She is one of the best people in the world! She is the type of person that makes people around her better. Both she and her husband have helped me so much over the last year with a lot of things. If anyone deserves happiness it is her and her family! Hopefully, her sister can get healed and be healthy. Instead of politicians using pork to line pockets, why not use the money to help find a cure for this disease at all levels! That makes sense to me. Am I the only one who thinks this way? Who do you know that hasn't been touched by this disease? The list is very short! People, I need your help. If you give to charities help out one that deals with cancer. Bypass Starbucks or fast food a couple times and make a donation. There are a lot of different organizations that can help. My goal will be to help in any way to eradicate this disease! It has to happen. I HATE CANCER!!!!
Today was a pretty good day. We went to the store after church. It was Wal-Mart. It wasn't very busy and I didn't get angry once while shopping. That's a plus for me since Wal-Mart always makes me upset for some reason. Three (myself, Brenda, & Kai) of us took naps today which means I won't sleep tonight. Amaya doesn't take naps. She didn't take a lot of naps when she was younger either. Hence, some of the gray hair. Then we went to community group. It's a small church group. We talked about marriage again tonight. I am supposed to submit to my spouse this week and always. I can start by doing the little things. Waking up to feed Kai, taking dishes out of the dishwasher, folding clothes, etc. You find out that staying in love is tough, but its worth it. I'll do the best I can. Tomorrow should be a busy day since I'll be home from work.

Worry

I decided that this may be a two blog day since something really amazing happened to me this morning at church. Pastor Stu Hodges did a sermon on breaking free of worry and anxiety. Boy, did I need to hear that. I worry about so much stuff. Is my grass really dead, will A Tribe Called Quest get back together, will I lose my house/job, will my car break down, did I do a good job coaching the team, will my son be the nerd in school like myself, and assorted other things. But my main worry item is my daughter's cancer. It doesn't consume me like it used to before, but I still worry. A lot. Too much it seems. That's why my beard is gray like a 60 year old man. Anxiety!!! Will she have go back to chemo, or have radiation, will it grow, will it shrink, will it go away, will we have a long hospital stay, will she grow up, will she have late effects, and it goes on and on. It was good to know that even a pastor worries about some things as well. He did give me a list of things to try: 1. I will think like God says to think. 2. I will do what God says to do. 3. I will trust God with everything else. I'm going to give that a try and see if that helps.
I love my daughter and would trade places with her in a second if I could. I want her to grow up and be happy and make her husband buy her the purple car that she wants when she gets older. I'm looking forward to doing the Bad Boys 2 seen with someone on each of my daughter's first dates. No parent should have to lose their child like so many people that we know from CHKD. They all deserve to grow up. It breaks my heart.
http://www.caringbridge.org/ninahermes
http://www.caringbridge.org/tommygosser
http://www.caringbridge.org/samanthatrost

I wondered about something last night at 230 in the am when my son wanted me to feed him and change his diaper. I wondered why he couldn't wait till later. Actually I thought about how I haven't done a better job of keeping in touch with people. There were some great people that were my friends in my numerous stops during my life. Weirton, Williamsburg, basic training/advanced training, and Charlotte are some of my destinations. I can't figure out how or why we lost touch. It might be because I smell funny or I owe them money. I'm still broke so you're not getting your money. I still owe ODU for loans and now I have 3 kids. I think I paid for at least 10 uniforms and helmets since I left. I need to do better with that in the future. I'm glad for facebook so I can get back in touch or keep in touch with those people. Two of them are the Banks Sisters, LeMaige, and Ladoris. I've added a couple of their websites that you can check out.
http://www.vimeo.com/rebirthmusic
http://www.reverbnation.com/rebirthmusicministries

Please, pray for Jose' and his family. They deserve some peace at this time.
http://www.caringbridge.org/joseandres Edmarc, another great organization is trying to help them out at this time. They do a lot for families that have children in treatment and have life threatening illnesses. http://www.edmarc.org/

If you haven't done so already please sign the petition at http://curechildhoodcancer.ning.com/. It only takes a minute. Also, use this information to write a letter to the President http://curechildhoodcancer.ning.com/forum/topics/pac2-initiative-why-mr.

Support Jordin Sparks! I am not an Idol fan, (my friends Jeffanie like that Dance show, but I don't watch that either) but she supports Alexs Lemonade Stand Foundation! http://www.alexslemonade.org/home Who is she anyway?
More later about my day or maybe not. I gotta go feed Kai. He's getting louder!!!
PS I forgot something. I'm gonna become a rapper! My name is gonna be Clark Griswold, King Joffey Joffer, Willie Wonka, Yoda, or SuperNerd! Let me know what you think!