Ma

I was going to wait until after the New Year to start writing again, but I decided it couldn’t wait.  My mom died yesterday 12.16.12.  It hurts. More than I thought it would.  The last few years, we have not been as close as we had been before.  I never got to tell her thank you for doing the best she could for me.  I never got to say Good Bye.  As much as it hurts me, it’s worse for my oldest daughter, Taylor.  When Taylor had no one else, she had my mom.  If you love someone let them know how you feel.  Don’t wait.  It may be too late. 

I miss you Ma.  I love you Ma.   

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yT4LXnjGUyc

I can finally actually say after a very long time, I am genuinely happy.  I was angry at everyone.  People that even didn’t do anything to me, made me angry.  I’m a great actor.  Most times people cannot tell that I am angry.  But when I do show my anger it can be very ugly.  I’ve decided that it’s time to stop being angry all the time and be happy on the inside & the outside.  It is a long process, but I’m getting there slowly, but surely.